It’s been four months since we’ve written or shared a post, and this time has been incredibly difficult, not just for me, but for everyone. It’s been a time of turmoil with COVID, furloughs and lay-offs, political and social unrest and protests, and so much overwhelming emotional trauma.
So, as I know so many of you are going through the same emotions and struggles, instead of posting about where to visit, I will open myself up, and share with you my deepest feelings about how distance, travel and all that happens in this world are impacting me and my wife, Hilcia…
As I sit here thousands of miles away from you, across a continent and an ocean, all I can do is think about you and us. It’s been three months since we’ve seen each other, it’s been lonely and dark through so many of those days, and so very, very trying. I long to hold your hand, smell your hair, hold you until you fall asleep in my arms.
I miss you. I miss everything about you…your good days, your grumpy ones, the love you give, the passion you bring. I close my eyes throughout the day and picture you with me, smiling, doing all of these things that you do. It gets me through the days.
This crazy rollercoaster of our life, with the highs of the amazing places we’ve traveled together, the wonderful and exhilarating experiences we’ve shared, now drops us into the lows of distance, loneliness and sometimes epic sadness. I look forward, beyond all of the now, to when we will be together, in another pin on the map, sharing the great times together again.
I know that one day soon, when that visa finally arrives, I will get on that flight, and all of this will be behind us. I can’t wait for that day. My level of anticipation is beyond words.
But, for now, I think about how deep, true and raw our love is. Not only are we good as individuals, but, we are great as a couple. Actually, amazing as a couple. I used to define myself through myself. But now, I can see no other way to think of myself except as a part of you. That’s the only way I want to see myself, now and forever…
Soon, so soon now, we will be reunited, and I promise you this, never will we be apart like this again. Whatever may come, I will find a way to be there, to laugh at your jokes, to wipe your tears, to hug you and to love you.